Why? Why? It happened to me again? It hurts... Who should be blamed? What to do? It makes me feel so terrible and headache... It comes from time to time, in fact, it disturbs my prayers! How terrible, isn't it?
I was trying so hard to forget that 'thing' and worked well, yet forgotten. Still, haunts me... I think my heart is bleeding again.
To console my heart, it is a test from Allah Taala. Yeah, just a test. Maybe, this is the way Allah rewards me if I get through successfully. God knows best!
